Tuesday June 21, 2011

So.... I never realized that people actually read this blog and occasionally even comment on it. I think that's one of the reasons I have comments moderated on my private blog-- so i can read the comment and know someone else is reading by blog. I looked at the comments for this blog today and noticed that people do actually read this blog! It's a shame I haven't posted anything grateful for MONTHS now. In fact, this is my first post in 2011 and it's already the end of June. Shame on me. For so many crappy things going on in life right now, I guess I realized how much I need to look for the good things again because sometimes I hate my life. I won't lie or sugar coat it. Sometimes I really hate my life. I see other people with my "ideal" life and I get totally jealous. Of course, I'm sure they have their crap to go through too, but I can't help but start the self loathing and wish that I could be better or that my life was more awesome. That I didn't have the trials that I have, so that I could just be happy. Of course you're probably thinking, DUH BRIANNE, you CAN be happy, even if you think your life sucks. Because really, i DO have a great life. And I should be happy. And I will be happy. I'm making changes that I hope will help me to be happier and to see the good in my life, even when things aren't as I wish they were. I even changed my ring tone to OneRepublic "Good Life" because it makes me remember that I have a good good life. And I love it. I have already noticed a difference in my happiness with these few changes... With that said, I'll start my list of 5 things I'm grateful for :)

1. Texts from Dustin. With this I'll include unlimited texting.


2. Summer vacations


3. Tax refunds


4. OneRepublic (Oh this has gotta be the good life)


5. Google Talk